Ouch, it hurts!

My wisdom tooth is disturbing me again. I dont think I can avoid the extraction at all. That tooth is growing in the strangest position! It gives me shivers when I look at it in the mirror. I'm already imagining myself wriggling in pain on the chair as the dentist struggle with pulling out 
that strayed growth spotted in the most challenging position. And the blood! And also swollen cheeks! Eek! I think I'll probably pass out with the amount of anesthetics I need!

It's only a matter of time for that nightmare to come true!

Anyway, I'll be leaving on a work trip to Sydney in two weeks time. Planning to arrive a day earlier for some exploration in the city. I'm basically looking forward to shopping over there! And visiting the famed Opera House! =)

Come mid-march, I'll be heading with SL and my boss to Melb for Grand Prix. The airfare costs $900 for each person. That's such a dear price to pay, compared to the usual $500 fare! But SL reckons with the free accomodation we get at the sister hotel, it works out to be pretty fair. Besides Melbourne, I can envisage myself enjoying a shopping spree in Singapore and Malaysia after the wedding. So yeah, I'm prepared for the most unhealthy financial position in the coming two months. Other than the shopping sprees, I would be expecting a huge bill for the lavish wedding I have opted to have at the Raffles Hotel (I have decided to pay for the Singapore one and SL paying for the Malaysia one)! It's a good thing that I have already started putting aside money every week for my credit card account. So, hopefully, that will not set my cash flow back too much by then! And hopefully, 
the monetary gifts will help to cover the bulk of the remaining bill.

But, I really need to scrimp after the wedding in late March! I still wanna make my Europe getaway come true! =)

Had an amazing CNY dinner at Ade's place! Although the atmosphere was different from Singapore, it's still nice to know that somewhere in Aust, there'll still be people around to celebrate those special events with you! 

So here's a photo of me, all dolled up for the dinner! (it's been a while since I've posted any photos of myself here in this blog!)

Oh yep, I have kept the tradition of getting new clothes for CNY alive! Hee!



I realised, as I was posting the pictures, these clothes aren't of very exciting colours actually! Not at all befitting of the supposed festive! =P

Anyway, I got these stuff from Valley Girl online store. If any of you from Singapore need anything from Valley Girl, have a peep at their website and drop me a line =)

When dreams crumble to dust

The pressure in me is exploding. I have got some really bad feelings... that people are plotting and big troubles are brewing. 

I felt totally drained last night. I could feel the exhuastion overtaking my body violently. As I drifted to sleep, it feels as if I have surrendered in my own battle. It had been a difficult battle. Those beautiful dreams I had about my future, my life and all the little things I have wished for, have all crumbled. It makes me ponder, what then happens after I get to where I wanted. Would I still be happy or would I be wishing for more? Would I have hurt anyone in my pursuit? 

I'm still trying to come to terms with the reality of life. I'm still feeling bitter over the fact that there isn't an inch on earth 
that is not spared by the evil of mankind. 

Man are despicable beings- we turn so power-hungry that nothing would stop us from jumping at each other's throats. Life is so fucking ugly and I wish I was never human to have any emotions at all.

Truely, life is such a bitch and all man are born to be political beings, which really makes us worse than animals. If there is such a thing as judgement day, I wish with all my heart that all man will be wiped out, leaving behind only a tragic vacuum that serves to remind how much we deserve it.

The first big step in life...

I bought the wallet for my brother just then. It's meant to be a gift for his 21st birthday. Can't fly back to celebrate with him.

As for my sister's gift, I honestly haven't thought of what to buy yet. I have in fact forgotten to send her my birthday wishes! =P But will make up for it by having a nice girls' out together when I get back.

As I look back on my own 21st birthday celebration, I can still vividly recall those fond memories of celebration and fun in the company of my close friends!

Can't wait for April to come! Not only because of my excitement for the wedding, but i'm also looking very much forward to catch up with my family and friends. Really, they are people who mean the world to me! 

My day's playing up on me

My day has been a hellish one. Enough is enough. I have decided that I should move for greener pastures soon. Too much things are happening at once. I'm leaving those betrayal, legal suits and dick-head-bosses behind.

The thing I need to learn is to have more faith in myself and what the future lies ahead for me. 

My shoes have finally arrived today! This could be very well the last shopping spree. 

I could perhaps settle for a job that pays less for the short-term, until I have decided what to do next. Really need the time to recover especially after suffering the bad luck of ending up with companies for notorious reputations, one after the next.

Wonder when this bad luck will end.

Some pics to lighten up this post...



 



(Yesh, I painted that myself. Going to put it up this weekend!)

Late Xmas Pressies!

Finally get to see what my xmas pressies are when SL came home on tuesday!

The bag and the lovely bracelet! I love them! That ring in the picture is actually my wedding band...and therefore not really part of my xmas pressies! The bracelet is abit too long for my, uh-hmm, tiny wrist =P And Im not supposed to wear the ring until the wedding. So for now, I can only look at it with longing eyes.



I have done the mock-ups for my giant canvas. But I might perhaps end up doing a simple stripped design instead. They are way easier to handle!