Lost

Someone once wrote,

"Sometimes, one has to get lost in order to find oneself"

Hey, I'm really so tired of being lost. When will I ever find anything, and get to somewhere soon?

My Saturday was great... erm, until I was called in at work unexpectedly to help some new staff out with problems at the front desk. There goes my Saturday evening again! I didn't even realise that time spent at work had creeped into midnight before I could get home and have a decent "dinner" to fix the hunger pangs.

I must have owed this company something big time, in ways I cannot see, to deserve this!

Better things to talk about here- I found a new toy in PS's new release, ROCKBAND! I've got to admit that the game can get pretty addictive. Also saw this Wii fitness at the store that looks pretty interesting. But for that price, I'd rather buy myself an elliptical to have a real workout.

Was back at the Goose for my seafood crave. Had originally wanted to head down to one of the wineries to try out their cellar collection while we lunch there. But a pity that I was too hungry for the 1/2 hour drive to Margaret River. Will see if we could do that next weekend. Margaret River would be my top choice to go for extraordinary dining culture. But it can only remain as one of those occassional treat if I do not want to burn a hole in my pocket, and grow fat! I'd rather spend that amount of money on a 1/2 day spa retreat or some new clothes, or even save towards my holidays.

I received the weirdest comment about my nose. Someone said that I obviously had a nose-job done. Can't work out how the conclusion was derived. I must have been born with quite a pretty nose, or I had a blotched job by a lousy surgeon, becos I can't afford for a top-class one to make it look more natural? Haha, why didn't I think of fixing my single eye-lids first, one of the major reason for that tired, sleepy look on my face every morning? And perhaps even consider some lasik surgery, so that I can save on long-term costs for those contact lenses? I'm firm in my beliefs about plastic surgery, even though it means that I have to pile on more makeup, use double eye-lid tapes and fake lashes, doing makeup tricks to apply colour contouring to make my facial features more defined.

Can't believe it's already Sunday- I wish I can stop wishing for time to fly to the next weekend. At this rate, I'm unknowingly wishing for the years of my youth to shred quicker!

I just have to hate my job!

Melbourne Cup 2009

I'm never a fan of horse-racing, and have not even been on a live one! In saying that, the closest I have come to racing was during my short stint in the audit at the Singapore Turf Club. It was interesting to look at the distinction in crowd that pour in on a race night. They either came in hordes from the back gate via the public train, or, the VIPs would pull up at the front porch in attention-grabbing luxurious cars. I used to feel really odd walking off home after work in the opposite direction from the crowd's flow.

It was yet another year of work luncheon over the big race of the year yesterday. Melbourne Cup 2009 marked more than 16 months of my service with the resort. I wonder how I made it through the one year mark in the first place. After whining over the same things over and over at least 2 - 3 times a week, over 16 months, I'm really surprised that I'm not yet sick of complaining!

Melbourne Cup and wine goes hand in hand. Wise Wine was our sponsor =)

Good food, and great presentation, is not any paler by comparison!

And photos of my nasty, messy, little office/ work area for the very first time!I was only making my way down to Margaret River after work for dinner with the bosses. I love my red checked high-waist skirt from Forever 21 Singapore. Thanks Sis, for encouraging me to make that purchase! =)

My outfit for TODAY's liquor licensing course. The course was great! It's a fresh perspective to look at how another country's rules and regulations differ from Singapore's. The Australian government does takes a serious view on responsible service of alcohol, and in defining the duty of care from licensed venues. With the complicated laws, I just had to laugh my head off when our trainer said that it always pay to have a good corporate legal adviser!

Would soon be time for me to submit my report for compliance (or non-compliance) for our venue! Not exciting at all!

My three cents worth, on Art for the sake of Art

If work is already bad enough, why make it worse? If the solid blacks are adding on to your gloomy, laden day, make a change to how you look... For the better!

Dressing up for work can be a chore, especially for a busy-body like me, who has a long list of tasks to think ahead. But really, I don't have a good reason to stick to the usuals, when my wardrobe is bursting with clothes, some never even worn before!


Part of the reason why I adore fashion is because of the way I appreciate it as a form of art. Art of expression, and an art that is culmination of a society's development of culture, affluence and creativity. When I was doing my History major in uni, I remember a professor of mine once said that man create art, not for the sake of art, but for the exploitation of it for political means.


How controversial is that! I see how both sides of the coin work. Man are naturally attracted to objects that are aesthetically pleasing. As defined in Wikipedia, art is "the process or product of deliberately and creatively arranging elements in a way that appeals to the senses or emotions, especially beauty"


Therefore, I can see how man use it as a tool of deception to convey obscure messages to audience who are lost and whose judgements turn vulnerable in the face of the appealing beauty. Appealing creations of art, which includes an inexhaustive list ranging from motion pictures, performing arts, literature to paintings, are indeed effective vehicles of propaganda.

Strangely, as much of a cynic as I am, I still want to believe in "Art for the sake of art".



Art is a subject that is so distanced from what I'm actually doing. It's unreal that I would embrace it so much. I can't imagine how dull the world would be if mankind let go of the pursue of art, one of the very last of beautiful things that remain in this ugly world.

Back to the main topic...

Some clothes I have bought from my trips this year, which I haven't got the chance to showcase =P (namely from Malaysia and Korea)

Yawnz... It's a Saturday, an absolutely glorious day, but my alarm just had to go off at 8.40am! I'm just not in the mood for work! Had to snooze for about 1/2 hour before I could drag my ass outta bed.

I have been really down for a while, and haven't been taking care of myself. But as I'm recovering from the mess, I have realised that how important it is to look after one's well-being. Even the most basic things like eating well, sleeping well and devoting sufficient time for workouts can affect one's energy level. My lack of energy and negativity has been killing me all these while. It has affected my concentration level. Drinking heaps of coffee did not work and had added on to my stress.

I'm not totally onto it yet. But at least, I'm feeling much better on most days. Keeping in touch with family and friends did lots to improve the situation. Having a routine workout at the gym,

and doing scenic drives helped to take away time from feeling depressed too. One thing to learn is, arrest the mess in your life before it gets bigger than life!

Some people just finds it easier to get over things than others. For me, it haven't been easy all my life. I always struggle with happiness, and fighting the blues. Just probably due to being unable to get along with my family, distance from friends, and having unrealistic expectations of myself.

There's nothing wrong with feeling down, even if it's for a prolonged period. Just don't let it become the seed of a self-destruction cycle. And of course, there's always good coming out of it as you pull through the lows. One could only get stronger when confronted with strong emotions. Feeling down and lonely is one of those strong emotions. Defeat can only be temporary.

As it is, even though I may not be as good in many areas as others, I have always pride myself for being strong. It does take time to develop conviction and even confidence to get to where I want. So long as I stay strong and keep fighting, things will start to fall into place.

As always, there are brighter things to look forward to. I have been using the hours after work google-ing and researching on Costa Fortuna Cruise, Venice and Milan =) It was the 8-day cruise specials on Flight Centre that sparked the idea of a European getaway next year. The point of embarkation is at Venice, with port of calls in Southern Italy, Greece and Croatia. How exotic!



The more I read about Venice and Milan, the more excited I get. Especially after finishing John Berendt's The City of Falling Angels some time last year (or was it the year before?), I guess this is the best opportunity to make the much-anticipated trip to Venice? I love travelling, and I love it even more when I'm able to combine my other greatest interest (SHOPPING). So, it doesn't take much for one to realise that Milan is one of the fashion capitals in the world. The trip "research" has inevitably stretched into factory outlets shopping etc. After reading up on tons of reviews, I have decided that I have to make this trip happen, no matter what!



I have even gone to the extent of looking up on hotels and airfares!



Just some days ago, El asked about New York and Germany next June! And yes! I'd jump on it if it's going to materialise as well! It could very well be a birthday trip for myself =) It's been ages since I had a good trip in the company of close friends. I did had a few this year, but nothing can be compared to people you have known for long, and well enough!


For now, it's enough of hours spent in front of the computer, google-ing. I still need to get on with my studies. Have decided to stop for one semester, in-lieu of so much going on at work, and also the trip.




Some spoilers ahead for the dream trip:

My sis has just started an online bakery with her friends. If you might be keen, the website is: http://www.swt-sensations.blogspot.com/