Live, Love and Laugh

All the emotions and thoughts that are going on in my head, are the most complex. I just couldn't explain it. It's a bit of feeling isolated, and then confused about who are the trustworthy ones in my life, to the extent of questioning how would I exactly define happiness, and whether I am really happy. Now, I can't be sure what I really want for my life!

Is life about making decisions which are in harmony with your significant other, or doing something that you really wish to do, just to fulfil that wish of your lifetime? Does happiness have to be compromised, or even sacrificed by considering the greater scheme of things for the sake of many others who matter to you? If they are really people who means the world to you, why wouldn't they have already considered how you feel, before pushing you to do things out of your own will?

Someone told me that this is the age where things can be harsh. To step out of your sheltered world and realise that the world is not quite what you think can be quite a shock. And then you begin to adjust and re-align with your real self. Another nightmare hits when you learn more about your real self. You aren't really quite what you think. Now, tell me, does that freak you out?

I still can't explain what's going on in my head. I'm just freaking out I guess. Hopefully, time is all I need to recover.

(Many thanks to those who have read my post about my keloid, and have made suggestions on how I can fix it!)